I decided to add a category called “Off The Top…” (now "Random Thoughts")where I’ll post my general thoughts and random braindumping about every and anything, but usually about natural hair .
And today (tonight…12:20AM on my 32nd birthday) I'm gonna talk about burn out .
And let me say this…at first I thought I shouldn't write about this 'cause everyone expects me to be so happy and encouraging about my hair and natural hair in general. And don’t get me wrong, it's not like I am not happy about my hair as usual…oh no no, I’m in love with the napps just like I’ve always been. But I have to say these days I'm experiencing a totally different emotion about my hair than I have in the past 5-6 years of being natural. And that is burn out. B-U-R-N-O-U-T!
So I decided to, as usual, keep it real and tell ya'll the truth . I mean, what would my site be if not for me sharing ALL the experiences I go through with my hair huh? Besides, this may help somebody so here goes:
Lately I can't stand my hair.
Yeah I said it…lately I just can not stand my hair .
I don’t want it straight…I don’t want it gone, I love my black cloud of hair…I’m just bored .
Here’s some history:
When Adima and I met I used to change my hair ALL THE TIME…but when we got to dating he wanted my hair longer and really grew to like certain styles so that’s what I wore. Well over the years I’ve gotten burned out on some of those styles and long for the days when I used to honestly do whatever with my hair and switch it up quicker than you could type “glamazini” * woosh * . Then in addition to that, I time is at a minimum for me to style myself a lot lately . And so, because of that, I'm in a state of "burnout" bad.
I currently have my hair in a puff and don’t want it like that. I have nothing against my puff…I love my puff! But that’s not the style I wanted at that point and I ended up giving up and putting it in a puff ‘cause I had to and not ‘cause I wanted to. And that sucked . Does that make sense? It was like I couldn't get my hair to do anything else so by default I put it in a puff and that made me not like that puff. *sigh*
So, today is my 32nd birthday and wat us gun du? *heh*
Us gonna get a weave and take a hair break, that's what us gone do.
Yes I said a weave… a sew-in to be exact. I had my 1st one (wait…2nd one actually, 1st one was years ago and I took it out after a week) last year and I loved it. Gave me a different look and my napps a rest. So I went to the shop yesterday and bought some random stuff and my friend is gonna do it for me tomorrow after work.
I’m definitely becoming fonder of the sew-ins when I get in a hair funk like this ‘cause they let me put the napps in protective cornrows and rock something totally different until I get it out my system. I’ll definitely post photos when it’s done. I really hope this post helps someone and shows them that your hair choices are ultimately up to you and even the best of us get bored sometimes and need a change…oh and that you don’t have to perm your hair just ‘cause you’re bored. Opt for healthy hair no matter what!
Peace, Love, and Shea Butter mixed with Coconut Oil .